In love with a Martian

01/21/2312

     It’s strange to let yourself back in to love after so long. That’s all it ever was, too; you keeping yourself out of it. It wasn’t that you were undesirable or stank too much of the Earth, or that you didn’t fit in and couldn’t find someone who felt like you. It wasn’t that you weren’t active enough, or going to the right places to meet new people. And it definitely wasn’t like nobody loved you. You just didn’t let yourself be in love with anyone around you.

I often think back to my last days on Mars, and when it came time to leave, I’m filled with the most ungraspable sadness I’ve ever shouldered. I wasted what moments I had there, and I’ll never get them back. I don’t just mean the countless unproductive hours, or weeks of moping about this or that instead of getting outside and living the life I was complaining I never had. I don’t even mean the months I spent going nowhere but down. I mean the few moments I had to embrace love I let slip away, and I’ll never know where they could have taken me. All the potential energy of a dozen lives not lived feedback with nowhere to be released, so they burn as they emerge and stream down my cheeks.

Time isn’t fair. It feels like so long ago since I fled to Earth, but I know it hasn’t been much at all. Still, for as long as it’s felt like, it seems like so little has happened. Maybe it’s because my routine has entirely shifted, or the fact that I have a routine at all that’s making it hard for me to notice when the days are passing and when they’re not. I know it’s a long shot because it’s not like my correspondence was ever too regular, but maybe it’s just because I stopped keeping a record of my daily events or momentary moods for the people of my homeworld that I’ve lost my handle on time’s passing.

I guess I just never really found anyone to write for. I could always log these things for myself but…I mean, keeping track of how many sports cruisers it took to pass me before I started to drive angrily, or how the new billboard on Spaceport Blvd. makes me feel about the state of the world is stellar and all, but I’m totally not interested in reading about the events of my life, and knowing I’m the only person who’s ever going to makes me wonder why I should bother.

That was until very recently when I met someone who’s already very important to me. And, I know; you’re gonna freak out when you read these next words and you realize the reason why I became inspired to start writing again. I’m in love with a Martian girl and I’m going to move to Mars to be with her.

I know, I know, I know; you’re all like “whaaaaa?” and checking the time stamp to make sure this isn’t a repeat. Then you’re gonna skim the rest of this just so you can get to the comments and give leave your piece…something about past mistakes and history being a bit circular—believe me, I know. This is definitely the sort of thing I should normally be tying into some cosmic allegory, or fitting into some analogy about orbits, or listing actual historic cases of events repeating themselves..But I’ll take something actually being positive in my life for what it is without applying a lethal dose of my usual cynicism. Especially if it means I might be happy with a beautiful lady and not writing it off as something hormonal or wrought with ulterior motives.

You’re gonna need a minute to catch your breath, I’m sure. I know it’s a lot to take in at once, but I’m certain all the implications are beginning to become apparent. Klay Lane is lovestruck, overall unskeptical, and—most importantly—will be writing from Mars again sometime in the near future.

     Hmmm…you might literally need to catch up before I can continue..Really, before I can even start. Why don’t I let this simmer with you for a micro, and I’ll get back to you in a week with a lengthy summary for those of you who didn’t have the privilege of being there…this should be everyone. Don’t worry, it’s not gonna be one of those boring recaps where you’re like “I’ve seen this before but it was longer”. I’ll make sure to include all sorts of lasers and special effects, and I’ll throw in a death, too. Oooooo, you’ll have to tune in for that.

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«Packing Up the Pod»

07-12-2310

I tried. I really did try to turn my dreams into reality. It didn’t quite work out, though.

I wanted to spend the rest of my life lounging in the radiance of the lap of luxury; sitting back in the sunlight without a care in the world–paradise and a perfect day never too far away. But you can’t just get that because you want it.

You have to deserve the peace of mind that comes with being a Martian, and so far I’ve hardly done a thing that obliges me to the way I’ve been living. I didn’t work my entire life, sacrificing my soul and personality so that I could retire early to these red sands. I’ve never been victim of a great tragedy or accident that landed me disabled or the recipient of generous quantities of worker’s compensation. I’ve never even bought a lotto ticket.

Also, should it not be apparent, I’ve never made any money acting on stage or screen. I haven’t been recognized for my artistic abilities in any contest or competition. I’ll probably never make it as a musician without a massive following or financial backing. And I never kept a good enough GPA to be eligible for any grants and scholarships that could help me stay on this planet.

So, two years too late, I’m folding my hand and cutting my losses. I always said I’d see the rest of Mars before I left it, but it doesn’t look like that’s even in the cards. I don’t think there’s any chance I’ll take a trip up the coast to see the more astro cities along the way to the cold north. It’s not likely that I could even scrounge up enough money to go on a trip south, across the boarder, even if I had time to brush up on my Martian. It doesn’t even look like I’ll get another chance to head into the city and see all the lights and sights downtown.

Perhaps, some day soon, I’ll have enough money saved, or enough credits to transfer, or have gained enough notoriety for my artistic endeavors to return. I hope that after I’ve helped my father to rebuild his company, my mother to relocate to a smaller house, and my little brother to get on the right track of school and work–by doing it myself to set a better example for him–that I can come back within a year or two and resume where I left off. Maybe I’ll just set out to travel the rest of the solar system from Earth when that time comes, and return to Mars in a decade or so when I’m ready to settle down. Who knows, I may never come back.

But for now, I’m bailing. Jumping ship. Quitting this place. Heading home. Throwing in the towel. Regrouping. Running away with my tail tucked firmly between my legs. Giving up the ghost. Fleetly fleeing. Submitting my two-weeks’ notice. Abandoning post. Letting the dream die. Buying my ticket.

I’m packing up the pod.

-K. Lane

 

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«But Where to?»

07-08-2310

Fondgrid sat forward on Dannae’s bed, hunched over the glow of the large sized droid in his palms. He was engaged in a match of his favorite strategy game as I waited for the downloads of the new apps he suggested I acquire to finalize and install. A bowl of fire lay smoldering between us, not knowing for certain where it was going next.

“So this is it, huh?” the dark-haired, pale skinned Marsling asked, not really taking his eyes off the game but giving me full attention with his ears. “The last days of your life on Mars.”

“Yeah, tell me about it,” I said remorsefully, setting down Nomi, my faithful robotic companion, and scooping up the bowl to reignite its aromatic contents. “I’ve gotta take advantage of everything this place has that Earth doesn’t,” I continued.

“You don’t really have much time in which to do that left, right?” Fondgrids blue eyes caught mine as he took a moment to set down his comm and receive the glass piece I was offering.

“Less than a week, then I take one last trip for a handful of days and I’m off this desolate, red world for at least a year…I’d be lying if I said I didn’t want to come back as soon as possible,” I admitted, retrieving Nomi to double check something on my itinerary.

“There’s always some sort of last hurrah with you, Klay,” he chuckled, aware that I can’t just walk away from anything without leaving a lasting impression or going out with a bang. “But where to?”

“You know, I’m not really sure yet…though I really need to decide if I’m going to do anything, time is running out after all.” I consulted Nomi, bringing up notes I had been making over the past few weeks as I’d tried to determine just that. “What do you think about the wastes out towards Daedalia Planum and the Three Sisters?” I felt confidence in asking a native these sorts of things as opposed to automatically trusting the recommendations my droid makes.

Fondgrid almost choked on the air he was breathing and coughed out “Tharsis? That desert? What’s out there that you could possibly be interested in?”

“I don’t know” I muttered, glancing down at my droid to check what note I had made on the region. “Well, I don’t really know how this could be considered a redeeming quality to me, but isn’t a lot of silver supposed to come from there?”

“That was just a myth, I thought, propagated by prospectors, settlers, and probably the same people who came up with the idea of the Gold Rush,” my Marsling friend’s statements came charged with spite, probably because he hated that dried up, shriveled feeling one gets in arid climates.

“No, if I remember correctly,” he continued, realizing it would be more helpful for me not to have his appraisal clouded with cynicism, “the only things out there—besides the lizards—are a few scattered desert settlements existing from when a charter of settlers lost their bearings and crash landed far away from their intended coastal destination.

“Desperate desert-folk,” I estimated. “Ok, what about up in Cydonia?” I inquired about the next bullet on my list, “I heard there was some sort of life stemming from there.”

“Well you heard wrong, my friend. It’s quiet and very much asleep around those parts, and the same goes for all the territory of Arabia. Lot of green plant life, but not too much of the social life you’re looking for.” He paused a moment to strike a lighter and inhale, exhaling as he said “But you do like to stay home and smoke all day, so who knows, it might work out for you.”

“Well I’m not quite sure if I want to spend my vacation the same way I’ve spent the past 4 years of my life…that would sort of defeat the purpose of finding an exciting place to travel to, especially if it’s going halfway around the planet to get back to business as usual.” I sighed and looked back down at my droid. “What do you know about Knossos?”

“In Elysium? You know that’s the land of the dead, right? Nothing goes on up there,” Brick’s words were again charged with a noticeable bitterness.

“What about the visual and music scenes, aren’t a lot of really interesting artists from that area?” I replied, slightly dismayed by his reaction to this destination. “I always thought that it was even more astro than Novus Angelicas.”

“Well, you are sort of a hipster…and you do like to complain about it being too hot and sunny all the time here, but do you seriously think you could withstand nine months of down pour?” he asked genuinely.

“Well, as great of a contrast to the nine months of hot sunshine I’ve been getting living in southern Amazonia, you’re probably right, I’d get sick of the rain real quick. Anything that doesn’t change at least once over the course of a week tends to drive me insane,” I said, slightly defeated until I glanced back down at Nomi. “Ah, but its summer, now! It’s not going to be nearly as miserable as any other time of the year would be.”

“Yeah, but unless you can afford to go to shows or you know someone who can be your personal tour guide, I think you’re going to be bored to tears up there.”

“I really thought it was a popular, lovable place…” I whined, refusing to admit defeat, “…but maybe I’ve only heard that from people who were raised there.”

“Notice you never met any of them up there; they all moved to Earth or down here cause they think it’s better,” Brick stated.

“Meh…this place,” I muttered.

“What’s so wrong with this place? N.A. and OC are the most astro spots on this planet, and everyone in our solar system knows it,” I had the Marsling defending his hometown now.

“See, that’s just the thing. I don’t wanna offend, but I just don’t think it’s as cool as everyone thinks it is. There’s something terribly wrong with this place; it’s just too plastic and fabricated.”

Fondgrid chuckled to let me know he didn’t take it personally and said “Well, what do you expect? It’s the most modern location this side of the Main Asteroid Belt. In the whole solar system, I think Japeth is the only place that tops it, as far as publically available technology and conveniences go.”

“Or Fortuna,” I mentioned, reminding us again of how much more opulent that small rock of a world was than any moon or planet.

“Yeah, but you don’t wanna go trying to look for life in any of those places; it’s way too expensive to stay long enough to find any conclusive evidence or results…even more costly than it’s been for you here,” he reminded me again how much I’d lost in order to just exist here.

“Heh, you’re probably right…where do you suggest I go to find life? Down south?”

We both burst into laughter before I could finish those words. “Yeah right, you can’t call that life,” he eventually replied.

“I didn’t think so either…it seems like kind of the opposite of what I’m trying to achieve. I’m not looking for a rags-to-rags story here,” I snickered.

“Well, maybe it wouldn’t be too bad of an idea to visit just Martia City…or maybe some of the safer, Earthlingized resort towns. Tiwan might be interesting if you’re looking for contrasts,” he halfheartedly advised, not really wanting me to head south of the boarder and disappear forever.

“Ugh… I don’t want to be just another Tiwaner…and I think I’m going to be in Copernicus in a week or two, so I’m going to have all the disgusting, drunk-party city experiences I’ll be able to stand, and then some.”

“Just a thought, I wouldn’t really wish that trip on anyone. I guess it’s just a convenient way to get out of the country if you live in southern Amazonia, but only if there’s nowhere else in the entire Solar System that you’d rather go,” he laughed. “Still, I don’t want you to end up dead or less any organs.”

Suddenly, the voice of Brick’s lovi came from behind me “Well I walked in at the wrong part of that conversation.”

“Hey, Dannae!” I set my droid down again and stood to greet her.

“Hi, Klay!” she said, her brunette hair still a little damp, but mostly dried after her shower. She offered a hug as she asked “How are you doing?”

“Great!” I yelled, squeezing her back, “how have you been?”

“So glad to finally be home,” she said with a sigh, sinking into her computer chair.

“Dannae just got back from a month long trip to Jupiter,” Brick interjected, stealing her thunder before she could tell her own story.

“Oh yeah? What parts did you visit?” I inquired, always interested to hear about different peoples and places.

“Well, she started off—” Brick began before his lovi shot him a glance, as if to say ‘I understand you’re excited to have taken a vicarious vacation through me, but may I please tell my story? Thanks.’

“Originally, I flew into Ilium, and my first stop after that was Omstel,” she started, clearly stoked to reminisce. “Then we traveled back to Io, landing at Gothalania. After that, we went through Breauma, Firenzia, and Quinti Terri. We hopped over to Urso on Ganymede…and then to the other side of Io for Nize, Aiks, and ended in Mazzalia,” she finished, grinning “I had a blast.”

“It sounds like it; I’m so gorkin’ jealous,” how I wished I could be traveling to such exotic places as the moons of Jupiter, the closest thing I feel I have to an ancestral homeland.

“I’ve been keeping up with your status, just cause we’re mutualed by Brick and you’ve been posting an awful damn lot recently; aren’t you about to take a trip of your own?” the light-eyed, native-looking, Marsling girl asked.

“Well,” I again sat down the digital assistant I held on the table, realizing it was probably the reason I’d appeared to make a surge of updates recently, but knowing it couldn’t help me demonstrate what I was going to say like a button could, “as I was just saying to your lovi, I don’t know where the gork I’m going. I mean, I know I should probably try to just hit all the big capitals and cultural hotbeds along the coast north and through Tempe, and journey all the way to Elysium and Antoniadi in Ganymedean Gaia.” She nodded, of course knowing the route I was drawing in my head. “I Just think it’s going to be a bit expensive to travel to and stay in all these places without going with a group.”

“Yeah, there were a whole bunch of us so things were discounted a bit. It’s also apparently cheaper to feed three or four people than it is to just get food for one, so watch out with that flying solo,” she cautioned. “Where after that?”

“Heading back in to Earth. I’ve already got arrangements for what I still own to be shipped back in a container, and I just have to end up at my old house in Vine in time to unload it; in about 2 weeks. But I think I’m going to be staying on Luna, for a few days of the trip at least. I’m not sure where yet, but I’ve never been to Copernicus, I liked Crater when Brick and I saw it, and I can’t help but hear great things about Waterloo; also I know people who will be in all of those places, and I should be able to couch surf the moon to make it cheaper,” I explained to them: Dannae attentive, obviously bitten by the travel bug, and Brick spending as much time looking up as staring down at his fancy machine.

“Maybe you should spend more time there than you do on Mars, if that’s the case,” a suggestion came surprisingly from Fondgrid, whom I’m sure was giving more focus to whatever game he had running. “You know you’ll be back here soon enough to keep reporting about this place, and not lose a beat on your correspondence or whatever it is that you write all the time…who reads that anyway?” he asked somewhat ambiguously.

“You guys, I thought,” suddenly concerned my linked-on friends on Mars weren’t even keeping up with my tlog.

“Oh, no; we do,” Dannae said, giving a confident nod to her lovi, “he meant who’s supposed to read it, I  just always wondered if there’s someone specific on Earth who you keep the netlog for, just by the assumptive tone of your rants.”

I chuckled, knowing they did read them well enough to notice that. “No, there’s no one in particular that I’m addressing them to at all..maybe myself, or my little brother, perhaps. They’re really for anyone to read, though. I mean, whether I’m a Writer or not, I am a tlogger, of course I want everyone in the whole Solar system to be unceremoniously forced to read it in somewhat real publication, but yeah anyone I can get to follow works for me.”

“Well, good luck with that, friend,” Fondgrid said with a forlorn smile.

“And best of luck with your travels, Klay. I hope you can get back to Mars and see us soon, but until then I’ll at least be getting updates on your whereabouts from your thingie,” Dannae assured, also expressing how sad she was to see me go.

“Don’t worry, you guys are probably right. I’ll be back in this forsaken place before I know it,” I agreed, and forced an optimistic smile as I added “it’ll be just like I never left.”

«Love It or Hate It»

07-04-2310

Lo there! For those of you just tuning into this netlog, my name is Klay Lane and I’m a homeless, unemployed twenty-three year-old Earthling.

I’m currently stuck on Mars and trying as desperately as I can to get off this red, desert world with the few material items which I still possess. I don’t care if I go back to Earth with it, or stop short when I visit Luna, or if I end up on some other planet. Preferably one I can speak the language of, so I think I’ll just stick to the Inner Worlds…maybe Ganymede or one of Jupiter’s other Earth-friendly moons if I really need to go farther. Just as long as it’s not here; I’ll go anywhere but Mars.

Now cool your jets, it doesn’t mean I necessarily hate it here, or love it for any matter. I realize that’s a problem with this correspondence that I keep; especially after those last two, very night-and-day transmissions I submitted. It’s been over two years, with my sporadic posting habit averaging to just about once a week—though not all of those even go public and get relayed to Earth and other parts of the solar system. In the time it’s been running, I’ve noticed myself express a great deal of opinion and emotion about Mars positively and negatively; equally in either direction. Yes, one of those cliché love-hate relationships we’ve all heard about, but an incredibly meta topic we seldom so serendipitously find an opportunity to rant against.

There are so many pros and cons to the whole living on Mars thing. Dozens of great reasons to compel one to remain, and many more even better arguments against living here which really should be addressed before anyone begins thinking it’s a good idea to buy a rocket ticket. But I have to present it fairly; though it may be ridiculously expensive to actually maintain a residence, hard to find steady employment, and even more difficult to fit in with the crowd unless you have something undeniably useful to offer them, there are still upsides to being a Martian.

The beauty of the weather and nightly spectacle of the sunset Mars has to offer, for starters; or the landscape and the unparalleled works of geography, nature and themepark construction that mystify the mind and could never be found elsewhere. The women of this world are unique, of course; another prime attraction around here which have been praised and glorified for their beauty and lovemaking in song and movie for decades without so much as one person thinking to verify the sources on these facts. Also, the convenience at which one can acquire whatever dinner, drink or drug they need from a store or vender at almost any hour imaginable makes one feel regal on a daily basis; fast food and coffee chains doubling up in most towns, outnumbered by medical cannabis dispensaries in many urban neighborhoods.

Like I said, though, it isn’t all palm trees, beaches and sunshine around here. It wasn’t very long ago that Mars was still universally deemed uninhabitable, and it’s important to remember how fragile the mechanisms are that allow us to live comfortably now, no matter how safe and controlled the new settlements of man seem. The vastly unbridled and unforgiving world still calls the shots and one has to take into account the real hazards afoot in the wasteland.

The blistering heat and mostly moistureless air are unrelenting to anyone exposed to them for too long; one needs air conditioning and a constant supply of refrigerated plastic water bottles to keep from drying up when they’re not in direct view of that evil, pinkish eye. The sun’s rays beat down uninhibited upon the surface for hours on end, and depending on your location, there probably won’t be any hills or trees to block off most of the endless sky, unless you’re indoors or safe under the cover of tinted UV screens. Watch out; wildfires, dust storms, waterspouts, rogue asteroids, very large lizards and regularly occurring Marsquakes are some of the more natural risks of this planet; the more manmade perils being smog inhalation, Martian drivers and falling space junk from any ships departing and entering the atmosphere, or the risk of any one of the many machines flying at any given moment suddenly losing its lift and plummeting downwards at anything more populated than patch of dry scrub.

Residents of Mars need to invest in as many products to protect them and their families from the elements as anyone living on any of the solar systems other less hospitable worlds. It hardly seems like a paradise at all when you have to keep climate controlling machines maintaining conditions inside your sealed home through the nicest seasons of the year. Or when you need to apply liberal amounts of sunscreen to any exposed skin just to drive to the convenience store or get some fast food, or need sunshades to see during most days of the year, or need to check the weather for UV and air quality advisories before stepping outside.

And of course, this isn’t a place filled exclusively with natural dangers; we have to take precautions here like shredding important documents to prevent identity theft from the trash diggers, or taking out extensive, mandatory insurance policies on all our precious belongings and vehicles in case of accident, or bringing a communicator or some other digital assistant with us everywhere we go to tell us how to get there, or in case we disappear. It’s more than I’d care to have to deal with on a daily basis, but these are just facets of life in this territory.

It’s not like I particularly despise this desolate excuse for a colonized world, I’ve just had it with Amazonia and its lies. They should be ashamed for the terrible trick they’ve played on us all, convincing the whole solar system they’ve tamed the wild beast into a bountiful, pleasant paradise, and that anyone can experience and share in the majesty of it. No one mentions the price, or any of the other fine print that goes along with partaking in the benefits of becoming a local. My problem isn’t with Mars, but with whoever propagated the idea to profit off the place.

Of course, territories belonging to the nation of Martia that neighbor to the south aren’t too pleasant either, and they don’t even make any airs about pretending it’s not. With a terrible economy, a nearly non-existing infrastructure, incredibly corrupt law enforcement departments and a scandal-ridden government, it makes the entire southern half of this planet appear unsafe for tourists and locals alike. I’m not really the authority on Martia though, I only know what’s been told and shown to me, so I can’t really say if it’s as bad a place as they all say it is. I’ve never been, I won’t be able to make it before I go, and I probably won’t ever go unless it’s a necessary matter of closure or finality to my adventures.

But there are some tourist destinations down there that are supposed to be gorgeous, a few I know of around the Hellas Sea or the Isidis Peninsula that have been drawing in visitors since Ionians first set up ports on this planet. I’m sure they balance out some of the negative aspects of the country, but they can’t be as amazing as they’re cracked up to be. I will still have to consider them for traveling if the solar winds ever bring me back this way. Who knows if or when that will even ever be possible.

If I really had the means to travel anywhere, and there were places I’d dreamt about visiting for ages or just knew I’d have to inhabit in order to gain some important perspective, why would I ever come back to Mars? I simply wouldn’t. The only thing that’s going to bring my back to this crazy crimson place is a job or the availability of a career that will enable me to get around the Solar system more easily. And then, you see, my intentions are still to get as far away from here as I can. But does that have to mean I hate it?

No, I think I love it too much, actually. I love it so much that I know if I don’t try to do something responsible with my life in order to deserve and attain the indulgences found daily in the land of plenty, it will ruin me forever, and possibly stop me from living the life I eventually want to. If I don’t earn a keep and prove my self-worth in a place without as much temptation and reward, I’ll never be disciplined enough, sure, but more importantly; if I take advantage of all paradise has to offer without having the monetary or credit power, or investments to secure my future, I won’t have the possibility of that future to look forward to. Simply: if I hang around Mars wasting all my money on good times, I won’t be able to retire to it or them at the end of my life.

If I don’t exhibit some self-restraint or impose that I can’t have my pre-fabricated post-meal treat square and eat it too, I may not ever give my chance to dig in. It won’t work just be flipping a binary switch, anyway; I won’t get back to Mars just by not being on it. I still have to do all the hard work anyone does before they can finally feel righteous in relocating to Mars. I just think it’s going to be a whole lot easier to do that while I’m not being distracted by everything I’m working to attain.

Just cause I have to leave it doesn’t mean I want to, but just cause I don’t want to doesn’t mean I shouldn’t go.

«Really Going to Miss this Place»

07-01-2310

Outside the window of her unit, the crumbling karst of a creek sprang forth with life into a green ravine. The overrunning runoff spout that created it either terribly planned, or perfectly plotted for the experimentalist type who may want to see water erosion on Martian soil. The sound of spring bird chirps on the wind floated across the accidental/incidental artificial gully and drifted through the open screen. The ambiance, along with the smell of some of Jove’s most precious fire that it kicked up, was reminiscent of the very second time I’d ever visited Mars.

The view outside hadn’t really changed much over the three or four months the weather’s been like this. Maybe the tall grass had tanned and browned to a more golden shade, but other than that the sights and sounds of the natural feature outside Shayne’s living room window had been the same since the beginning of March. Well, spare one other thing; there aren’t any students or graduate students flowing to and from campus from the housing complexes on the hill.

There weren’t any students around anywhere. The lively Ivy League university had become a swampy, tropical ghosttown in a matter of days. Random wayward collegians wandered bereft of anything important or anyone interesting to talk to here and there, but mostly they remained scattered in the peripheries of their homes or around the shops of the university shopping center. I can’t see them, but I know there are grad students about; they do good to keep hidden. The summer just means more time to work for them, so anyone still on campus is stowing away in the hills surrounding it and probably wondering why they got themselves into a year-round 5 year grad program.

Yesterday I roamed the University Town Center shopping district on the north end of campus and saw how dead it’s really gotten here. Shops had new, slimmer hours and some eateries weren’t open for the lunch rush, signs that business had declined drastically. All of a sudden, it was like the plug had been pulled and drained all the customers away. Or so it seemed to someone who had been stopping by there at least once a day, most days for the past 2 months he worked for the Census. It looks like even that too is closing up shop, though, and I am once again unemployed.

I still take care of that guy’s house, and I still deliver packages and make a few calls for the photography company once in a while, but I couldn’t really consider either of those gigs real, dependable, or gainful employment. There’s really no way I could advance in either field without a lot of time into the crafts of cleaning house and picture snapping, and I’m not truly certain if I want to pursue a career in either right now. It’s also not likely at all that I’ll be able to find myself any other jobs that would pay even half as well anywhere on Mars within the next two months, especially seeing how under-qualified I really am.

It seems like a good enough a time as any to go home, now. My father’s company seems to be picking up even more work, though I still believe he needs the help of my brother and me to help bring it into the digital world and appeal to a wider market, possibly even film teli and net spots. My mom finally seems like she’s had it with the unit we’ve been living in since I was born, and it could probably use a good fixing up before she can put it on the market. I know something I’ve learned taking care of my friend’s yard will allow me to lend a hand with its repairs, and if not I want to help my family move out of and into whatever housing unit we can get. I also want to be there for my little brother, and make sure that he’s doing the right things like getting a steady job and being diligent in school by doing it myself to set a better example for him than the people I’m afraid are influencing him back home. And anyone else there that I love and care about that I’m sure miss me, I’m going back for them to help make their lives easier somehow, too; instead being the burden I’ve always been.

It’s for all of them I leave Mars, but it breaks my heart to think about it, and I feel I’m constantly reminded of what I’m going to miss when I blast off this world. The red planet has been a good host to me, hostile and uncomforting at certain times, but even accounting for all the misfortune it’s been a worthwhile experience. My days left here are numbered so I really have to appreciate what remains in store for me, without overdoing anything, though.

I’ve become so accustomed to the lifestyle here; waking up late enough to see the working day has passed in the rest of the solar system because the conveniences of so many late-night eateries and bars kept me awake long into the morning. I’ve gotten used to being able to taste anything or feel an experience I could possibly desire, often with a choice between many different flavors and varieties of each, available at any time with little to reasonable effort. I’m a bit addicted to be riding the crest of the biggest, new wave and being ahead of technology and fashion compared to my friends on other planets, and that I don’t even have to be at the pinnacle to feel decades ahead of some places. I’m afraid I’m going to feel withdrawals from any of these things that I’m not able to find a viable substitute, now that I realize they’re things I really do think I need.

There’s a handful I can think of right off the top of my head that I know I’ll never be able to replace. Things like infrastructure and transportation that were laid out efficiently before development of the world, since it came so late in the game compared to all the others. The engineering marvels that allowed the red, desert world to bloom so quickly are really something to behold: the electricity and utility grids, mail delivery and shipping lines, and sure, the transportation system too. Even if it’s terribly congested most of the time, I digg the freeway system and find it easy it is to use, in theory; or how every location in the area is easily accessible with the right combination of routes and enough time donated to traffic.

I’d never feel the overwhelming sense of optimism and hope for life and creation with as few wild animals are around here, but I respect the flora and fauna of Mars, and regard them certain esteem for being able to withstand this wasteland. I may miss the plantlife the most out of those two though, its oh so unique to the landscape, and seeing the palms and succulents bursting from between the cracks of even the most paved and urbanized areas reminds me instantly I’m standing on a world where the stakes are much higher than my own. Of course, when the only thing you want on a blisteringly sunny day is shelter or respite from intense UV rays, the indigenous trees—if you could even call them that—offer very little in the way of protection and shade.

Although beauty is only skin deep, and looks aren’t everything, and any other trope about the exterior of something not being nearly as important as what’s within, we can put all of that aside to agree that there’s few places in the world that can claim to have as high a concentration of physically attractive women as Mars. Whether it’s because the entire planet pioneers the trends of fashion and style, because we have highly advanced technology available more widely and consistently than most other worlds, because people who can truly afford it here can also spring for cosmetic mods, or because people with great genes have populated this dusty place, Martian girls appear to come out a few standards higher when they’re rolled off the assembly line. And even if I know better by now than to trust something raised and molded so artificially, or to make broad statements about a group of people I’ve only become partially acquainted with, that doesn’t mean I’m going pass up an opportunity to stare as they pass by, or that I’m not going to miss being able to casually glance in any direction and get a piece of eye candy.

What I expect I’ll miss most—especially because they’re the things I think I take mostly for granted—are any of the bits of virgin terrain that have yet to be crushed under the ever-sprawling, mechanized foot of industrial and residential development, and the weather. Unsettled, untouched, pure as it were, the landscape of Mars that’s never been under the hand of man is some of the most appealing in the solar system. And the weather is to die for, and anyone who’s been here longer than a day will tell you that. Nowhere else that I know of in the solar system has as many consecutive months of perfectly hospitable temperatures as Mars does, and no other place has as many breathtaking sunsets as the almost entirely west-facing coast of the Martian territory of Amazonia.

They’re things of aesthetic, but often powerful enough to overcome the low moisture and poor air quality, and fear of falling sky or breaking ground, to make this place appear nice enough to raise your family.

I’d say I’m going to miss my friends, and the family that I’ve found here in this desolate place, but how can you miss someone you’ll be bringing around with you in your pocket everywhere you go? I guess I’ll miss hanging out with Allan, Nymh, Shayne, and all of their friends that have made my life so enjoyable over the past few years, but I’m going to be doing my best to keep in constant contact with them, to help make it feel like I’m not really gone. The social interactions I can say I’ll definitely find it hard to replicate are the weekly jam sessions I have with the Magnate family as their loyal band mate, roadie, and apprentice. It’s going to be near impossible to find something as great as playing music with the guys, and know I’ll be tempted to catch a rocket back sometime just to rock out again for an evening.

But until I can afford that, or just entertain the idea of giving myself another vacation when there’s so much work to be taken care of on Earth, I have leave everything I’ve come to love about my life on Mars behind.

I’m really going to miss this place, though.

«Me and Nomi, the Γ-555»

06-28-2310

It’s almost scary how quickly we became acquainted with each other, like it was meant to be. In less than a few days’ time the two of us have become seamlessly integrated as one all-knowing, all-seeing, all-doing machine. This is the sweetest communication device I’ve ever had the pleasure of calling mine, and her name is Nomi.

I awaken to the pulse of an alarm which gradually grows louder as she becomes impatient. The motion sensor notices my arm reaching in the dark and the touch screen illuminates itself to help me find her. I grasp her sleek, aluminum frame and with a swish the alarm is dismissed, being replaced by my homepage.

One application widget displays a universal inbox: holding all incoming messages and transmissions addressed to me from my various social networks, and gives me an input to broadcast back on all of them simultaneously. Another provides me with a combined minifeed from all those networks: sharing chatter not directed exclusively at me from my apparent social-web, like the status updates, media uploads similar contributions of others in it. Another widget open is a newsource aggregator which allows me to customize which set of sources I want to stream a feed of news and happenings from, and delivers their headlines to me as they break.

There are several other panels and apps and widgets available for assisting me with whatever I may need digital assistance with, but they’re only distractions to me at the moment. I feel obliged to clear my feed inboxes of all the messages I received from the parts of the solar system that weren’t sleeping before I can get on with my day. This requires plenty of viewing and digesting information from a hundred different places at a time, which probably lead to the Gamma-555 model being named “Chomp” on the market. My Nomi chews through them in almost no time, and finishes serving me my informational breakfast before helping me find a real breakfast.

There are many ways I can go about this, now: accessing my navigator app and inputting the name of one of my favorite restaurants to get directions to their nearest franchise or branch, or by going into 3D view to see which blips pop up in the immediate area. Of course I have other apps that just give me a filterable list of every type of eatery or shop within a certain amount miles without having to sort through the blips to see which look like food. Another app even makes a game out of picking which location you want to go to by making you check in when you get to the establishment, then by keeping track of who goes there most often and alerts you when you can catch your acquaintances at their favorite spots when they get there.

Plenty of programs available are designed to help make obsolete the extant tools and hardware existing in the non-modular, non collective market intelligent software is supposed to replace. You can expect, there are many apps that mimic the functions of everyday devices and machines that had previously stood alone that would surprise you, and more are being developed all the time. Of course this wouldn’t even be giving the smart-comm in my hand—currently listing off names of Martian Fast Food joints and their distances from my current location—her due credit.

“Nomi?” I ask in an inquisitive call, purely out of habit. She doesn’t actually need to note my tone as a question, just hear that I was saying the name I had given her on activation to prompt the voice activated command menu. This didn’t mean my comm wasn’t smart enough to mimic human speech paterns and insert mood where she felt it appropriate.

“Yes, Klay?” She responded in a soft, patient voice.

I stand her up on the table with one of the imagers viewing me so she can better interpret my facial expressions. “Where should I eat?”

My droid immediately lights up and begins reloading a brower page on her screen, saying calmly “I noticed you were looking at Martian cuisine. Did you want fast food because you’re on a budget, Klay?” as two options labeled ‘Martian’ and ‘Fast Food’ appear as she stamps my name.

“No, I just want to get my food quickly,” I say, not expecting her to be able to understand this, and begin to reach for the robot to manually. I stop suddenly when her screen reloads without my input.

“Would you like me search which of the nearby Martian restaurants have quick preparation time reported in their reviews?” the ever clever piece of equipment suggested.

I stared with an expression of shock long enough to realize she probably wouldn’t be able to make sense of it and said “If you can do that, yes, Nomi; perform search.”

The results she had for me all sounded appealing but I just asked her to select the nearest one, calculate directions and forward them to the crawler. I could also have her lead my way entirely with her own onboard navigation as I drove, or just allow her to feed me directions as I asked, but I don’t need to run the battery down any further.

When she’s finished executing the commands I slip her into my pocket and continue to get ready to go out. I only take her out again once more before I leave to double check the local weather forecast for the next couple hours as I decide on what clothes to wear.

As soon as I begin walking through the parking lot towards an authentically run-down Martian restaurant, she’s back in my hands. I access the app that keeps a track of how often users visit venues and shops, and check in to the location, which immediately displays reviews and menu suggestions from the other users, and claims that someone with an apparent affinity for anteaters is the king of this location, with the most check-ins out of all the users who have eaten here. Though it is possible he’s an employee and relays his location to the app every time he clocks in to work, so I give him kudos in hopes he’ll have more incentive to deliver better care to me—if he is my server, a cook or even the owner—knowing I have a smart device handy, and could easily praise or defame him, the food, or the entire establishment for all to see.

It seems like it would make the entire service and hospitality industry more polite and effective if consumers played a larger role in feedback and review of the services provided, but the only ones seeming to take advantage of it are people with smart-comms that make it painfully easy to open an app and report about their experience. If I were a food critic or working as a secret shopper I would have to avoid flashing about fancy gadgetry, like this, to test the establishment and make sure they weren’t just playing up for the media, and actually ensure the same amount of satisfaction to all customers, not just the ones they expect to spend and tip more. I should put Nomi away, though; I’m about to order my food, and I know I’d find it rude if I was trying to help a customer too involved in using their comm.

<***>

It turns out anteater11 is not an employee here, and lucky for him cause I just gave quite a caustic critique to the whole place. The service was slow, the prices were higher than I anticipated, and I could have found better tasting food and more properly prepared ingredients at a drive-thru if I had wanted to eat in my car. I leave behind a miniscule tip in addition to my digital condemnations before I get up from my faded vinyl booth and walk to the door.

Its early afternoon outside and the ruddy sky has broken through the gloom to reveal yet another beautiful Martian day. The atmosphere is almost clear spare a frame of pink clouds, the occasional passing spacecraft, and a small, light colored blip in the center of the sky that looked like one of this planet’s minute satellites.

“Nomi,” I say as I raise her main imager to the air, “Is that Phobos or Deimos?”

Without even a moment of computation, she responds “Phobos. Would you like me to access local star maps, Klay?”

“Yes, Nomi. Why not?” I say back, her screen alight with activity as she loads an app that labels celestial bodies, draws lines to connect our constellations, and answers once and for all what the gork you’re looking at when you see that shiny spot in the night; if it’s a star, a planet, a satellite, or just a distant starship.

It’s a program exclusive to droids, as it requires the power of the super-nano-computer housed inside each to use the GPS in conjunction with astronomical charts and current net feeds to pinpoint your exact location in the solar system, and inform you what you’re observing in any direction the comm can turn. It’s similar to the autonav AIs onboard starliners and other commercial spacecraft, responsible for plotting and trimming the course over the long expanses of interplanetary travel, but I’m sure their little cousin could be quite useful to have handy if your private craft ever lost its navi. Not that I’d have any particular use for that feature anytime in the foreseeable future, but it’s one the selling points the gadgets have over AM’s Button, which sacrifices hardware space for lustrous shape and aesthetic abilities.

And sure enough: the pale, crumb-sized object in front of me is the big moon, Phobos—if a captured asteroid could ever be considered a big moon. It’s the larger of the two, at any rate, which explains why my eye was even able to catch it in the daylight. Behind it and just a few degrees higher is the yellow-lined drawing of airy zodiac constellation, Aquarius, and a large blue dot, not to scale with the surrounding area, with the label Earth.

“Nomi,” I said with a weary sigh as I lowered her from the sky, “I’m done with this place.”

“Where would you like to go, Klay?” asked the feminine mechanism, as if with infinite patience and wisdom.

“Home.”

«The Pocket-Bot»

06-22-2310

So after that entire righteous harangue about getting myself a 3D projecting button, resolute as any of my tirades, it looks like I’m not going to be getting one after all. All that business about the lowest tier of advanced gadgetry being good enough for me can go right out the window. Even knowing prices of everything will soon change with the AM-4G is being released later this week; it seems I may have gone and bought myself a droid.

Excitement, confusion, frustration and a general anxiety describe the volley of feelings usually projected at anyone who says this to their friends and family. Whether having a cybernetic companion is controversial or taboo in your circle, whether they support the technology or endorse your joining the ranks of its users, or whether they’re just jealous you can’t afford or need a pocket-bot.

I’m sure anyone who isn’t as familiar with the emergence of droids onto the market as I am is also just a bit shocked, so let me explain for any of you archaics living in a crater for the past 4 months. The first droids were cumbersome and buggy; too large to really be convenient for private, personal use, and too unreliable and frail for successful commercial applications. You used to see the technology utilized mostly in reception and hospitality, rolling around in human shape at head height with the intention of comfort for humans that interacted with the units…as if that made them any less inhuman. Direct descendants of these came to be the electronic tellers that assist us at banks, restaurants, retailers and anywhere else they could replace order-takers, receptionists, and counterpersons.

An apparent breakthrough in technology has created an abundant availability of smaller scaled electronics, possibly spawned by the Japetians; they’re always so ahead with computers and robotics. But whether they’re developed and engineered on Saturn’s most forward-thinking moon, or manufactured and assembled on one of its more impoverished satellites, I’m sure we can thank the residents of the ringed world for collaborating with the Earthling companies who have their hands on all the resources and patents needed to mass produce a new generation of personal gadgetry.

My personal brand of speculation aside, tinier components allowed for more intricate systems that required less energy to power the machines. Suddenly these robots where no longer restricted to the leash of their umbilical power cords or the confines of an area cordoned off to keep us safe from incidents with their micro-nuclear reactors. Even though they’ve been marketed extensively with the name, a robot lacking self-contained method of locomotion is not a droid, no matter how smart they are. In order not to confuse, I won’t come up with a new name for them; the one they have suits them. “Droids” were able to leave the home for the first time, transported in the bags and pockets of those able to afford them, who may still be toting around their alpha and beta models, if they weren’t plagued with errors and design flaws.

But now everyone who can is getting themselves their very own droid, and with good reason! They’re prolific and inexpensive right now, as well as customizable and quite practical in a time when people are trying to streamline and reduce their electronic load already. Also, how handy is it to have portable text, voice and video communicator that acts as a reliable imager, media device, GPS, Wi-Fi hotspot, net browser, social network manager and an actual personal digital assistant with built in AI? So what if the right combination of apps can give you similar capabilities with a button, it still won’t do it all for you.

You don’t have to bog yourself down with all the augs and other gadgetry you’d think you’d need to carry out the tasks of your daily routine, and especially, you don’t need any other comm or handheld that you would normally use like an electronic multi-tool; a droid can do it all for you simultaneously. It’s like bringing along with you a sidekick or being escorted by your chief attendant, or even having your very own digital familiar; but these condensed constructs are pets that take care of their owners.

There are going to be some drawbacks to owning a pocket-bot, of course. Data and service are going to be expensive, but maybe I’ll be able to cut back on calls and messaging with the net at my disposal anywhere I go. But I’m sure It’s going to be awkward becoming adjusted to always being connected to my social networks, and always having my actions and thoughts being monitored by my machine, but after a short while the strangeness of never being alone will fade—like I’m sure it has in anyone else living their lives entirely synced. Of course I worry about what would happen if my buddy became damaged or lost, and about being hacked and having my private information or the droid itself used against me.

All very valid concerns, but I’ll be able to adapt and overcome them if it means my being up to par with trends of technology and fashion; and as I understand, gaining a certain sex appeal I understand is associated with intelligent devices. Not that I find I’ve ever really needed to be riding the crest of any the wave, but it would be nice not to be crushed underneath it for once.

So now I’m pacing and waiting anxiously by the door, feeling like a kid unable to be patient for the very first toy they ever saved up and ordered for themselves. For the first time though, this one will do everything I’ve ever desired a toy to do.

«Need a Button»

06-19-2310

I don’t know why exactly it is I do, but for some reason, I just need a Button.

I wasn’t all that dissatisfied with owning a texti. It’s not like I desired more customizable features or apps, or desperately needed a touch screen, or even lusted for a comm that was any more intelligent than the one I already had. Its not even like I want to upgrade, my comm is just broken and I’m getting tired of undoing rubber bands to answer a call.  If it wasn’t for a few hardware malfunctions I wouldn’t even be considering getting a new gizmo. Really, I should be content to just get another sturdy little device with a full keyboard, and not have to explore any of the other—more expensive—forms of personal communication.

But instead of being fulfilled by the idea of owning a gadget similar to ones I’ve had for the past half decade, I’m thinking of taking full advantage of this upgrade. But that doesn’t mean I’m not just taking the next step and purchasing a touchi to satisfy my needs, oh no. I’m going straight to the pinnacle of communication devices: The Button.

Well, technically there are other, much more complex gadgets and machines that handle personal communication more efficiently, but they perform many more duties than even the most deluxe comm—and cost a lot more—so they’re classified differently. Examples would be portable and ultra-portable workstations, PDAs and pocket droids; but I’m sure I’ll be discussing things like these some other time.

No, I don’t think I can afford a machine so intelligent that it knows how to charge itself or contact emergency services automatically if something happened to me; nor would I need a clunky datebook with a phone attached to a modular bay. But I do need a handheld device that projects a semi-three-dimensional laser screen into thin air. I know, that’s so 2307, but it’s taken this long for that ability to become affordable to someone like me. This might be one the most technologically advanced time’s our race has ever seen, but only to those who have enough money to be riding the cutting edge. I’m just catching a little wave here, it’s not like I’m going to go on a full tech overhaul here, only the bits I’ve needed to replace.

Not to mention, they’re rushing the release of the AM-4G series to compete with the number of droids that have become available just over the past few months. It will have even more advanced imaging hardware and this and that, and it all seems really impressive, but most important for me is how its availability drives down the prices on the other AM products I’ve secretly wished to possess since their release.

I’ve always been a sucker for cool things though, usually with no real practical function aside from their aesthetic novelty. I’ve always enjoyed owning something that looked edgy or unique, and strived to make sure what I did buy was a little different than everyone else’s because I believed was in some way superior to the trendy model. Maybe getting myself an AM-3G three years too late is just unique enough. No one will have them around here, I’m sure, though I guess I’d fit right in on the Moon or Uranus, or wherever the things are just coming into style for the first time.

I don’t mind having the third or even forth best method of personal communication at my disposal. Gork, I didn’t mind having the 6th or 7th best, but it’s inconvenient and bizarrely more expensive to get a texti or touchi; they seem to be pushing the ones that require higher data packages, since the company makes more money in the month to month than the price of the disposable product and they know it. Upgrading to the least expensive advanced communication device appears to be the cheapest option I can go with, and I definitely don’t mind if that means I’m going to be using something as astro as a button from now on.

Although having a droid might be nice, too…

«Planned Obsolescence»

06-10-2310

I had been aware that it’s only a matter of time before my dinky little comm would reach the end of its lifespan, but does it have to be time for my trusty workstation too? It’s almost like they both heard that I was contemplating their replacement so they put in their two weeks, and now they’re loafing as they wait to see who will be taking their place. I don’t blame them though.

Technology is as disposable as any other product we purchase and waste on a daily basis; the electronic gadgets we lust after so much are just another type of consumable. Your average device will last a short while longer than its warranty covers usually, when the manufacturers project they will have their newest product out, when they expect a new technology will create a radical paradigm shift in the market, or when you just need it the most. Producers effectively predestine any one of their stock’s life spans by programming a death date.

This planned obsolescence can be observed in objects as great as automobiles and spacecraft, to tiny like communication devices, toothbrushes and even things like tools and clothing. You use one up and move on to the next. Manufacturers love it because it makes consumers buy more often, and pay much more money under the assumption that the product doesn’t have a set life span. But the consumer who is actively engaged in the economic system loves it too, as it generates a great diversity of products from different competing sources routinely. The idea of paying a bunch for a product you know will deteriorate and eventually rendered inoperable isn’t so daunting. When it’s spent and gone you don’t feel upset because you know you know you can always get another one, reliably; maybe they have an even better one by now.

And I’m sure every day you see people thinking its ok to treat other things with the same regard as these mass manufactured creations, which don’t even deserve the punishment they receive from humankind. Once one of my dad’s businesses has outlasted its usefulness, or it’s impossible to come out with any financial advantage, he simply closes it and starts an identical one with a new name. There’s no way for me to tell you how many companies he’s gone through in the past few years alone. I knew a girl who would let her pets come to neglect, forcing someone else in the family to pick up slack, as soon as she bought a new fuzzy or scaly critter. There was a menagerie of forgotten pets left behind when she moved out of her family’s home.

I’ve known many to regard all of their relationships as having built-in-obsolescence, and never worrying about getting too attached to any one lover. My dad has always been an example of this, but more presently I’m thinking of a young Marsling girl I live with, who just so happens to have tossed her old beau to upgrade to a taller, sleeker, less sporty model. It’s also interesting to think that both my father and Rikka are also the people I know to upgrade comms most frequently, whether it’s because they’re both short on patience and are quick to deem something useless, or they saw a new one they really wanted, cause they’re just used to the cycle.

What the gork?! Oh great…speaking of cycles and getting a new comm, my computer isn’t the only device finding the approach of its own demise becoming ever nearer. The spring-loaded swivel that spins the screen open to reveal the keyboard has busted somehow, and is no longer able to hold my comm closed; allowing it to swing unrestricted and possibly even answer itself. As I predicted before, the gadget would become intolerably unusable right before it would be time for me to redeem a 2-year discount I was so close to earning…great…

I guess that’s the kind of world we live on though; products don’t have to fit the needs of their intended users, they just have to make money for the producer. Those creators also aren’t thinking about the needs of the environment either, and often end up generating a deal of negative impact on both. Just think of how many things that end up expiring on us contain lead, asbestos, lithium, cadmium, mercury, thorium, uranium or plutonium that we just throw out without thinking. Of course, anyone of them could design products that lasted longer, but it would go against their entire business model to have them not to need to be replaced annually. Who knows, they may even design their widgets to know how to break down when the owner needs them most, but we’re just being sold an item made from the cheapest materials available and really pay most for the research into more fragile and easily destructible technologies.

As consumers, it’s near impossible for us to avoid these tactics which are being targeted directly at us; everything is hastily and cheaply fabricated in mass to be disposable and eventually require replenishing, and I mean everything. From the packaging painstakingly wrapped around our food and drinks, to all plastic toys we buy for our loved ones and electronic ones for our selves, even the fancy desktop station and the sphere controlling your home. Pens and pencils, lighters, eating utensils, tents and instant-shelters, writable cards and discs, batteries, sunglasses, envelopes, air fresheners, umbrellas, stickies, and water bottles. There’s a huge market for health and beauty products, like cotton swabs, flossers, tissue, soap, toothbrushes, hairbrushes, razors, anything in a dispensable stick form, or anything that dispenses for that matter, whether it’s a tube or one of those standing, motion sensing squirters. They all get used, they all run out, and they all serve their purpose. And then you have to purchase more to maintain the same status of life you attain while burning through all of these so-called necessities daily. Yes, it’s a sad throw-away culture we live in.

Even people are ultimately expendable, and I don’t just mean soldiers and henchmen, though I can’t think of anyone who better fits the bill of dispensable workforce. Employers are always willing to hire on anyone whom they can effortlessly fire when they’re no longer needed. In fact, if you’re getting yourself into a job that pays really well, you’d better expect your boss does not want you to be having to do it for very long. Any job paying a wage of over $15 an hour at entry level without a degree probably won’t last you longer than a month or two. If it’s a job with shitty pay, they’re going to entice you into working for them longer in order to attain raises and promotions.

My current job pays me $17 an hour…which means that by the time you get this transmission, that sentence should read “my last job”. The office has been in frenzy this weekend to complete and collect any and all outstanding work still roaming about in the field, walking from door to door. I’m afraid the time I haven’t wanted to come since I received my first paycheck is only days away. Still, before it’s all over, it looks like I’ve been assigned at least one last operation, way beyond my jurisdiction. Heading south for a day won’t be bad though, it will be a nice chance to get away from the creeping claws of The Caspian Company, and the black and white wolves of law that bare them.

Any discussion or decision about a replacement for my disintegrating texti will just have to wait until after this enumeration mission, no matter how much I’d prefer to get a new comm before anything else goes wrong with this one. Just hope that doesn’t happen while I’m still out here, I’d really hate for this mission to be the last for both of us.

«The City of Caspian»

05-27-2310

Well, I didn’t get a new comm. There were too many other things that came up this week that demanded even larger portions of my latest paycheck than I anticipated. Besides, I can’t decide if I really want to upgrade to a smarter device or not. My workstation has been acting up an alarming amount recently, which only makes sense since I’ve had the thing for almost three years now—that’s like 60 in computer years. I’ve been wondering, as it looks like I’ll be replacing the loyal Z-140x, if I shouldn’t just stick with another dinky little texti and use that money to instead invest in a more advanced and portable porti.

From what research I’ve done so far, whether I’m upgrading or continuing to use both devices simultaneously, it would be a lot more cost effective to have a comm that didn’t have so high of a monthly upkeep, instead of getting a communicator that required a data service plan as expensive as a full sized computer would require you to run. I could also cut down to a smaller bag to carry my daily necessities around in, I wouldn’t even mind sporting one of those typical single-shoulder cases that look like a murse, as long as it housed some sort of elaborate electronic device.

As much as I might be trying to consolidate tools and gizmos for a more portable lifestyle, I still don’t want to whittle myself down to one solitary device. I know what it’s like to invest your entire life and identity into a single object, and then watch yourself deteriorate to shambles the moment it isn’t readily accessible to you. And of course, I’m afraid of what would happen if the gadget I’d been relying upon all day suddenly felt it appropriate to run out of power, especially if I still needed it; or in the case of the crippled Z-140X, what would happen if I wanted to use the workstation beyond the reach of its umbilical energy cord?

Needless to say, the debate on whether to upgrade my personal communicator and portable computer workstations, or whether to just get one machine to perform the duties of both gadgets will have to continue another time. I still have work to do.

Unfortunately, the malfunctioning swivel-style texti in my hands is all I have to rely on to find where that work was. The government-issue PDA, enshrouded in the Census Bureau logo-embossed bag over my shoulder, can’t help me find where I need to go; some regulation about protecting information from falling into unauthorized hands prevented them from being able to preinstall even a simple GPS app onto the same handheld they gave us to manage a checklist of which units remained to evaluate.

The only reason I bring up the need for newer gadgetry is because my gorking comm is getting all buggy on me. The stupid scroll wheel, invented ages ago to replace simple directional pads and improve navigating long menus, isn’t working: disabling my ability to choose anything but the first selection from any option menu, which was luckily the GPS app cause I use it so much. Free-Browse is the only available mode, so I can’t actually get directions to any of my assignments.

The Census did provide me a hard copy of the maps for my area on a large card with mapspots programmed in for addresses in the assignment; so if I could find something to identify where I was, or at least identify north, I might not be in bad shape. Not too long ago, it would have been easier to read a map like this, but I’m so used to the mock-3D display and semi-interactive interface now that a static map, even one you can zoom in and out on, just seems weird. Still, I’m confident I’ll be able to make some sense of it after I climb this huge hill and get a good view at this place.

From the looks of it, it will be a few minutes before I reach the summit at the pace I’m taking, so I’ll read over whichever blips my comm does allow me to select as I climb above one of the finer, upscale communities in Caspian to look over the rest of the city. I just hope I don’t trip over anything while I gazing into this tiny screen.

Reading the first blip sends my heart into my throat. It says: 2308- City of Caspian voted 4th Best Place to Live in the UTE, a distinction previously awarded, if you would believe it, to my hometown, back in 2305 when that newsource began the annual evaluations of which small towns in our nation were the most peaceful and had the most prosperous people inhabiting it. Not that I really had any sense of pride in Vine, but I felt appalled to think that a prize my town seemed to work so hard for could easily be bought by the underhanded City of Caspian.

The next bubble is more basic info, it’s what I was hoping to start this segment with. After Gams Caspian Sr. passed away, his son, Gams Jr., incorporated the land his father and associates had purchased from Duraton into The Caspian Company. He developed the area with olive and citrus crops, and allowed the construction of a magnetic rail station, post office, and military space station in what became known then as Caspian, and another station in what would even later be known as Rustin. When Junior passed, the company went to his son, Mybrook, who took it in a more urban direction. This third Caspian died mysteriously in 2259, right before the company signed a deal with University of Mars to build a school on some of their prime coastal land.

Strange, yes, but a different story altogether. Family lines are interesting and all, but this rant is about their city, not them. And I know the rest already, though I examine a marker with almost identical information to one I’ve already seen as it passes by; after construction was over, the higher ups of both parties involved then sat down and discussed what to do with the remaining land acquired by the first Caspian. The culmination of their meeting became the Caspian Ranch Master Plan, and determined which individual tracts of land would be developed as enclosed villages, separate from adjacent neighborhoods with their own themes, styles, room configurations and pricing scales, amenity grids, gardening and waste management schedules, club houses, jogging trails, pet parks, directories, home owners associations, housing societies, neighborhood watches, and–if they cost enough–dividing gates and embellished signage displaying the cookie-cutter community’s unique name.

This is nothing new to Mars, and these housing communities, with their nearly identical units, perfectly manicured lawns, pristine swimming pools, and three-ship landing bays are popping up all over the solar system, anywhere there used to be undeveloped space too near to the spreading clutches of capitalism’s tempting infection. I can remember both of Rip Gozo’s homes being just like the place I’m walking through, particularly the one that has its own golf course intertwined into its layout. I’d love to say that it’s a vulgar representation of the idyllic suburban homestead, lacking the soul of something crafted painstakingly by hand, and not mass produced and set up in a series, but not even my hometown can avoid this discrimination.

Vine was part of many areas our government filled in with victory homes for veterans of the Solar Wars, rolling them out over any flat surface they could find. Even though I’d like to believe my house was raised with tenderness, love and care, I realize it too is nothing more than the turnout of some heartless assembly line. The green, foresty hill settlement did have its blend of colonial- and civil war-era dwellings, still standing in whatever sectors of town stood before they installed a terminal of the rail line from the capital, and after its addition, respectively. The style of houses used to be a lot more quaint and eclectic.

But everything in my hometown changed after someone decided it was the 4th best place to live in The Union. Skyrocketing housing costs, stricter ordinances about appearance and other aesthetic bullshit, and a crackdown on law enforcement were just a few of the things I noticed ensue during the last year I lived in Vine before moving to Mars. From what I’ve seen on trips back home and reports from family and loved ones on Earth, it’s apparently beginning to look a lot more like this place every day.

On one side, public amenities have been upgraded, outfitting the town with improved crosswalks, historical site renovations, a nice town green where a needless strip mall used to be, new utility lines, better park upkeep, Wi-Fi hotspots, and a brand new fleet of municipal service vehicles, including a whole wing of Tiger Shark police interceptors and a detachment of the brand new Hornet motors I had thought they only had here on Mars.

On the other side, more strip malls have been built, along with more business and shopping centers, which brings more traffic and pollution to the town, and reduces jobs available to locals by magnetizing workers from other surrounding suburbs who don’t want to commute all the way to the capital. Soon, they’ll build more shops and fast food restaurants on any unused stretches along all the main roads and major side-streets, then all the unincorporated space that exists between town centers will fill up with more soulless housing, lined with more stucco shopping complexes, and my Vine will be nothing more than a Martian copy.

In the past five years my hometown has seen many of the charming little cottages, which made it cozy and appealing in the first place, get outright demolished and replaced by the same kind of obscenely large mass-mansions that adorn every hill, coastline, and crater bluff in southern Amazonia, but without so much of the red clay-tile rooftops and ironwork. The changed city has been descended upon by realtors, developers, contractors and construction workers, like a cloud of capitalistic locusts trying to take advantage of the hype, and the resources, and what was then a powerful economy. It was as if we’d discovered gold and everyone came to town to set up shop and catch the rush.

Often times, the construction agents would attempt to buy up two adjacent properties, tear down both the houses and build three even larger ones in their place. The company that purchased the land next door to my mother’s unit wanted to do the same with her lot, and offered her a reasonable amount of money to take the property off her hands. I’m not sure whether my mom just wasn’t ready to move at the time, or if she felt as if she was doing her part to preserve the history and esteem of our town by not letting something newer, bigger, and faker prevail, or if she was holding out for a larger offer, but I’m sure she regrets not taking it every time she looks out the kitchen window at the artificial monstrosity towering over us, or wishes she could sell the old house to move to a cheaper place.

I finally reach the top of the hill I’ve been slowly mounting for the past five or ten minutes, and take a break to catch my breath on the only level part I’ve come upon, before climbing the last few feet to the summit. As soon as I cease moving my muscles start burning, but I finish the climb and resist the persistent urge to sit down and rest longer, lest I cover my work pants in red, sandy dirt. After a moment of mental recovery to absorb a climb too taxing for an empty stomach, I take in the view and try to orient myself by identifying surrounding landmarks.

I see one of the main roads leading to Allan’s house from this area, that huge building still standing at the neighboring military space station in Rustin, the office buildings and corporate headquarters in the crowded business district, the campus with its town center, and against the coast the familiar shapes of the oil refinery and Style Isle. Which is nice and all, but it doesn’t really help me find out how exactly to get to the first address of my assignment. I reluctantly unfold my texti, knowing I’m gonna get distracted from my task even if I can’t navigate a cursor through the app’s GUI, and locate north.

An enormous info cloud occludes my sight of most of the city on the map screen, so big that it has to be a sponsored link; and somebody paid a lot to have this one show up from even the most distant zoomed-out view, and if I could zoom out I’m sure I’d see it rivals Novus Angelicas. The supposedly trending blurb states that Caspian is the safest city in The Union. I just begin to laugh out loud at this point and put the comm down for a second. It was obvious for me to see right through the subterfuge, I wouldn’t even need to adjust the transparency to know that was a lie; I know it all already.

A preplanned community like Caspian may have low-income option sectors, but there aren’t any slums or ghettos here, so it is true that its generally a safer place, but not all crime stems out of just the bad parts of a town. The hard working, dedicated, vigilant and bored police force keeps a tight grip on everything: frightening the sheepish citizens into submission like wolves, which is coincidentally the same thing I used to say about Vine’s finest. Whatever crime does get reported is ultimately in control of those who fill out the paperwork, and though I don’t know if this would or wouldn’t happen in my hometown’s police station, I have reason from many sources—ranged from fanatically to passively convincing—leading me to believe that the Caspian police department often throws out most reports on crimes of proprietary, sexual or violent natures to keep the books clean and in their favor.

I’d like to note now, though it is merely speculation on my part and backed by no fact from any source greater than my intuition, that there is no difference between The Caspian Company and the City of Caspian. I haven’t confirmed this at all though, it’s not like I checked and saw the same names on the seats of CEOs as on the chairs of the city board. But in my mind, I can only assume that in a place so inclusively belonging to one corporate entity, which can create its own outrageous prices because owning so much land gives them a monopoly over the market and which still maintains its control over any property it leases out by having a hand in all utilities and services provided for it, that their interests, resources and tactics are one in the same. The Caspian Company created, raised and nurtured the settlement which now allows it to thrive, which makes it less like a parasite or even a symbiotic relationship, but two organs of the same being.

That being, whether it prefers to be acknowledged as a city or a corporation or something entirely different, is a clever, sneaky and conniving one. When I began working for the Census, our old superior escorted a group of enumerators to perform an overnight operation in one of the unsheltered areas notorious for having a population of homeless individuals frequent it at night. He had personally been there earlier in the week to scope it out at day and night, to estimate how many workers he would need to bring, and handpicked several enumerators to accompany him to what apparently was a barren park on Census Day.

Not even the scraps that signified an encampment remained; the park had been scrubbed clean of nearly every trace of the homeless population that our boss knew was present. He thus suspected the city was up to its usual tricks of record smudging and gave the large group of destitute people a one-night hotel voucher to not be counted by The UT Census, if that even makes a city look bad. All it really did was disable those people from receiving the shelters, programs and whatever other aide they would need, and leave a community with a sizable homeless issue bereft of the facilities necessary to deal with it as it grows over the next ten years.

Yes, whether I refer to the city or the company, Caspian likes to keep things secret; but I haven’t even gotten to my big point yet. Which is sad, cause I’m already a chapter deep on this transmission and wondering if I should have broken my expose on this town up into four parts, instead. Anyway, on top of all these things Caspian would rather stayed hidden from public knowledge, the most concerning and irresponsible thing they keep under wraps is exactly what is right under your feet.

What, no one informed this was a native burial site before? The realtor didn’t mention that strange odor that comes about every once in a while might be escaping gasses from a hastily capped landfill still decomposing beneath your neighborhood? Well they must also not have told you that the whole community may be ready collapse into one of these reclamation projects if a big enough Marsquake struck. And they definitely didn’t even bring up the fact that the corrosive carcinogen trichloroethylene is seeping up into your village from a contaminated water table.

One of the drawbacks of letting the military construct a space station on your land, it seems. The toxic hazard stems from below the Il Tor Marine Space Station, where the industrial, triple-chlorine solvent was used for decades as a degreaser and cleaner for spacecraft, fighter jets and any number of other airborne vessels serviced at the station. There, the aquifer is saturated with the nasty TCE, which the UTGS, or whatever agency the government contracted to study their old bases, discovered to be noticeably spreading towards the center of Olympus County at an alarming rate. The northward drifting cloud has also been found pluming up beneath one of Caspian’s more noteworthy villages, Treeford.

The poor denizens of Treeford have no idea there are hazardous levels of this life-shortening chemical bubbling up below the many fountains, water features and green turfs filling in the spaces between their units. Their plants and lawns are sprayed with water reclaimed from this very source, as well as any produce or crops grown in the area, making it even harder to avoid exposure to it by you or your loved ones.

There’s no info bubbling up on the haywire gadget in my hands that discloses any information about TCE. It seems to be wiped from all the pedias and main info sources that supply the most popular results to this app, but even if I could navigate the interface—or if I had a better comm—I wouldn’t find very many instances of it being mentioned in conjunction with the name Caspian. Either the source that reports on the chemical and its cause of cancer in Marines and family members of those serving live in or around bases all across the UTE is wrong or someone’s done a good job of editing any info about it. It’s not really something that’s good for business, so anyone not wanting to lose money because of, or be liable for the mess, won’t want them to know.

Especially with the ground breaking on Caspian’s new project; a repurposing of land to build a great park. It will include sports fields and parks, and hiking trails through a picturesque, artificial canyon and botanical gardens, a museum, a library and a veteran’s memorial, a giant, communal social-terrace dotted with cafes and restaurants for visitors and locals. It will also include a thousand acre farm to help produce food for the eateries and grocers there and in the surrounding areas, with a very large portion set aside to be of a wildlife area, reintroduced into an important Olympus County watershed, as well as a few pockets of housing communities to flush with the surrounding villages. And best of all, the infrastructures already laid out because it will be located on the waste yard of the decommissioned Il Tor station.

They ensure us the site will be safe and for humans by the time the begin construction, but when they’ve done so much to mitigate this issue and keep it as small a deal as possible, I don’t think they can be trusted to wait until the land is entirely harmless and the toxic waste cleaned thoroughly before they’ll sink their shovels into all the money to be made. I wish I could find an entry on this so I could back it up with fact.

Hey there’s something! Wait…no, damn it…it’s a blip that has TCE in the beginning of the sentence but there’s no way for me to move around one of the larger bubbles in the way, advertising new space available for lease. I’ve really had it with this gorking comm and its busted-ass scroll wheel. Apparently I get cranky and ranty when I’m upset about my possessions. I just wanna get my work done and get out of this terrible place, but I still don’t even know where to start.

Oh yeah; north! I turn myself around in a circle watching the tiny compass in the corner of the screen rotate until the N is on top. Of course, It has me looking straight down the road I’m desperately wanting to take back home. I root through my bag for the hard copy I had out earlier, and compare it to where I was standing.

Well, if that’s north, and that’s the freeway, then across that strawberry field is the hill where I’m standing, and then I’m in the entirely wrong neighborhood. Gork.

Alright, all the way back down the hill…all the way back to my crawler. I hope I can get paid for all the time I’ve spent gallivanting along this pleasure trail.

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